1. |
Anthem
05:00
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Do it for fun, say no to trends
Dont have to choose and wont pretend
Hes overboard and far from sure
Hello, i dont know what you heard
Oh no oh no oh no i know
Oh no oh no oh no lets go
Oh no oh no oh no i know
Oh no oh no oh no
With the lights out, its less dangerous
Where, what, who, how? Enter anus
I feel pretty and courageous
Where what who how? Enter anus
Im a little sort of bi now
I must get rid of my libido
Help
I curse at that it is a test
It is a gift and im obsessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end
And i remember what a waste
Oh yeah, i guess i faked a smile
I find it hard to know whats mine
Oh well, whatever ill be fine
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2. |
In Gloom
04:05
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Sell the kids for food
Weather changes moods
Spring is here again
Reproductive glands
Hes the one
Who always get things done
And whos white and smart and strong
And who never has been wrong
And hes got all the means
He has all the means
Cause hes the one
Who always get things done
And whos white and straight and strong
And who never has been wrong
And hes got all the means
He has all the means
Cause hes the one
We can have some more
Nature is a whore
Bruises on the fruit
Tender age in gloom
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3. |
As You Want You To Be
03:44
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Come as you are, as you were
Always supposed to be
Not a threat not a trend
Nobodies enemy
Take a breath, dont hurry up
Its up to you, not the terfs
Not today, but someday
The pain will be
Memory
Come, in a skirt, in a beard
As you want you to be
As yourself as our friend
This time is soon
Memory
And we are all the same to the sun
All the same to the sun
Memory
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4. |
Breathe
03:15
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I dont care, i dont care, i dont care
I dont care, i dont care, let me not care
I dont mind, i dont mind, i dont mind
I dont mind, mind, dont want a mind
Get away, get away, get away
Get away, away, let me get away
Im afraid, im afraid, im afraid
Im afraid, im afraid, ghost
Even if i have, everything i need
Room is closing in, find it hard to breathe
Stretching out too thin, too weak to be
If i didnt care, then i wouldnt see
Unread
I dont care, i dont care, i dont care
I dont care, i dont care, let me not care
Im not here, im not here, im not here
Im not here, im not here, let me begone
No escape, no escape, no escape
No escape, no escape, no where to run
Im afraid, im afraid, im afraid
Im afraid, im afraid, ghost
Unread
Read
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5. |
Cipralex
04:21
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Im so happy - cause today i shed a tear - Its been a year
Im so worried - in a way im way too fine - its out of line
Every morning is the same for all i care - wake up scared
Chest is bursting - im in a haze and i cant sleep
No worries in the world - ive never felt better
No problems left in the world - how could it be better
Im so lonely - thats okay, i didnt eat - so im not sad
And just maybe - my days in bed are the best ive had - im not sure
Im so excited - i cant wait for what is next - and i dont care
Im so empty - thats okay, im doing good
I like it - im not gonna cry
I miss you - im not gonna cry
I love you - im not gonna cry
I feel blue - im not gonna cry
I fake it - im not gonna cry
Im hurting - im not gonna cry
Im bleeding - im not gonna cry
Im dying - im not gonna cry
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6. |
NDA
02:50
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They made me sign the paper
They went through all my emails first
Hes given me a whole lot
For silence i am reimbursed
“If you cross me, you wont succeed
Let me touch, you fine thing
Let me take a ride, please myself
Want some help, undress yourself
Got a grope, you havent told
Promise you, ill be true
Let me take a ride, please myself
I you want help, undress yourself ”
And then i was blacklisted
Lost my career as punishment
The lawyers only told me
To sign the non-disclosure agreement
“If you cross me, you wont succeed
Let me touch, you fine thing
Let me take a ride, please myself
Want some help, undress yourself
Got a grope, you havent told
Promise you, ill be true
Let me take a ride, please myself
I you want help, undress yourself”
Then he said
Then he said his back hurt
He wanted a massage from me
He caught me off my guard
At least i had a wire on me
“If you cross me, you wont succeed
Let me touch, you fine thing
Let me take a ride, please myself
Want some help, undress yourself
Got a grope, you havent told
Promise you, ill be true
Let me take a ride, please myself
I you want help, undress yourself"
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7. |
How Dare You
02:26
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“How dare you?
You have stolen my dreams
And my childhood with your empty words.
And yet I’m one of the lucky ones.”
Weathers become alien
Facts are now opinions
Had to find a way
Didn’t find a way
We cant wait
Had to find a way
Didnt find a way
Is it too late
Boomers cry at the tv
I shrug my shoulders slightly
How are you surprised
are you surprised
We’ll pay the price
Could’ve told you so
I told you so
How dare you
Had to find a way
Didnt find a way
Is it too late
Had to fin a way
Didnt find a way
Is it to late
I am done with anger
Cause anger springs from hope
Had to find a way
Didn’t find a way
Now it’s too late
How dare you
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8. |
Electroconvulsive
03:45
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Ive been locked in for months all alone i need someone
I dont care who as long as they are closer to me
See you in the garden at night i pluck you a flower
I say hello we hold on tight i breathe your hair
Now that im close to you
I cant let go you
Doesnt matter who
As long as they are you
I like you
I suggest we could share a bed and keep on holding
You smile look down you want to but you dont dare to
I turn around leave the grounds and all that is you
Again im back and empty except for
ECT
Had no one for months
Had no screens no fun
Always feel empty
Only electroconvulsive
ECT
Ive been locked in for months all alone i need someone
I dont care who as long as they are closer to me
See you in the garden at night i pluck you a flower
I say hello we hold on tight i breathe your hair
Now that im close to you
I cant let go you
Doesnt matter who
As long as they are you
Always feel empty
Only electroconvulsive
ECT
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9. |
Man Act
02:41
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Truth be told i need security
I wish that you would mother me
Id like to but it couldnt work
To trade off and to take turns
I too feel like a thing
Cause Ive got this dogma engrained in me
I lock up what i feel and throw the key
I arrest myself, i wear a shield
I go out of my way to prove im steel
Im not like you
Dont try to make me open up
Im fraid of what it might release
scared that i will loose control
Ill strangle every single tear
Until its dead and gone
Cause i got this dogma engrained in me
Where i lock up feelings and throw the key
I do want to show vulnerability
But that wall is too thick and tall for me
Im not like you
Thruth!
I resent having to be a man
I wish that i could just let go
And not be stiff and stale all the time
But be kind and soft and warm
And free of my gender
I got this dream of pregnancy
Of carrying forth a part of me
Of loving care and breastfeeding
Of being close and mothering
And not be distant and be cold
Show fathers can take a motherrole
Give them the gift of being free
Of male perspective and patriarchy
In other words make them like you
Just like you
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10. |
God is Gay
03:28
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When i dont know what to do
Wish i could be proud as you
Is there more room in the parade
No need for shame if he is gay
God is gay
LGBTQIA
I hide away
Queers in streets are here to stay
I hide away
Maybe ill stand up some day
I hide away
Gods not he/him and not straight
God is gay
Now i know what i will do
Dont hide away
I am queer and proud as you
Dont hide away
There is more room in the parade
Dont hide away
No need for shame when They are gay
God is gay
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11. |
Destined to Fame
03:19
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Who said a song couldnt be art
Ill set the record straight from the start
Love myself better than you
I know its wrong but what can i do
The finest day i ever had
Was when i learned to cry on command
Love myself better than you
Why should i lie when that is the truth
Im destined to fame
My face is my game
Remember my name
My following shower me every night
They make my day you can quote me on that
Love myself better than you
If it so wrong then why are you glued
The world is cruel were all alone
So why should i throw anyone else a bone
Love myself better than you
If everyone did then all would be good
Im destined to fame
My face is my game
Remember my name
What i do havent been done before
I document and make sure it is stored
Through the lense of my day to day
Unfiltered and clear what im trying to say
And now its time to hit subscribe
To comment, share, follow and like
Love myself better than you
As creator its content in all that i do
One more special message to go
And then im done and you can go home
I love myself better than you
Be hundred percent you in all that you do
Im on a plane
Destined to fame
My face is my game
Remember my name
The others are lame
Theyre all the same
Boring and vain
I cant complain
Im destined to fame
Remember my name
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12. |
Somewhere Far Away
03:53
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A big box of concrete
I have been inside for weeks
And theres animals outside
But they feel so far away
And I have a dream of more
But i cant imagine leaving
And im okay with this
Cause im coming short on feelings
Somewhere far away
A different simpler life
Like a small house in the woods
where the passing of the time
Doesnt have to mean concern
And every step is meaningful
Cause they dont need any meaning
Far away from this
Maybe then i can start feeling
Somewhere far away
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13. |
Eternal, Untitled
06:30
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Tired of looking in the mirror
I look outside
I cant tell the time, cant tell the time
I dont know how it goes
But thats okay
Thats okay
I dont know how it goes
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